smiling when i die
I think it's normal, but I have a strong tendency to retreat into myself and spend a lot of time diving into the past when the present overwhelms me.
Perhaps it's the feeling that the past holds unearthed secrets, a missing piece in the incomplete jigsaw of the present?
updates
Went to a Bad Bad Hats/Yoke Lore concert at the El Rey last week which was entertaining despite somewhat mediocre music
Attended Irvine Non-Fiction Book Club for The Water Will Come by Jeff Goodell — probably would've enjoyed it more for a book about a different subject (the conversation became pretty circular because everyone came to the same consensus—we're kinda screwed?), but it was nice to meet new people from Orange County
Purging a lot of things because I do that when I'm stressed
Kumquat Coffee in Highland Park has delicious vegan Hong Kong milk tea
The situation in Hong Kong is extremely saddening but I don't know what to do about it or how to talk about it
I bought a snowboard setup and I'm psyched for snowboarding season
I sold my bike because biking streets in Orange County is kind of the worst
I finished reading Wild Swans by Jung Chang which was incredibly written and provided a depth of understanding for the last 100+ years of Chinese history that I don't feel like I've been able to get from any other text (one of the best books I've read this year)
I sewed for the first time in years to modify a pocket on a sweater my brother bought me
reflection questions
How are you doing?
What are your coping mechanisms?
How do you deal with guilt from the past?